Oh God Cow. I knew you were in a dark place when you went quiet.
I am not always very good at expressing myself on here, but I want to convey to you that I think you are pretty damn tough to weather that sh*t storm and come out the other side.
We will be here for you.
As for that turtle, no worries...he loves you unconditionally, as he has said, so he'll be here by and by.
As for me..just dealing with financial issues and some health problems that Mr. Crout is having. I'm too old for this never ending stress. It's wearing me out.