I erased what I wrote. Some points I realized why I'm just done with all the drinking tonight:
- not keeping proper hygiene
- not taking care of self
- acting crazy
- harassing people drunk on the telephone and by text
- insane cycle of drinking
- wasting time and money in bars
- eating a horrible diet of crap
- nursing hangovers for hours on a daily basis
- people calling police or threatening to call police
- being sloppy and not caring about anything
- throwing up almost daily
- throwing up in public toilets
- embarrassing and humiliating myself
- spending more on liquor then anything else
- heading to the bar to kill my hangover
- brain fog
- reeking of booze
- people taking advantage of you when drunk
- incoherent
- black outs
- waking up parched
- not moving for hours until hangover is gone
- living on gaviscon, tums and advil everyday
the list goes on and on..
Just coming to realization here after 6 years of this lifestyle of craziness.
Thank God I had a moment of clarity and knew it was time to stop again. I just spin out of control every single time. 6 years of this daily/nightly drinking. Seems like I need a new hobby. SMH.