With regard to alcohol, and drugs for that matter, I miss the good times with good people. I miss not having to think when I meet somebody and being effortlessly able to maneuver my way through social intercourse without feeling like a moron. I miss being able to laugh at the drop of a dime.
I don't plan on going back to alcohol or drugs, but I'm gonna lie to myself or to you all and say I like where I'm at right now in life with regard to my personality. I can feel growth and perceive growth. I know I'm on the right path, but I cannot feel it like I could feel things on drugs or alcohol. It's more of a spiritual kind of thing, which is deeper but not as sensation-driven.
I'm trying...but I'd be a liar if I said I don't miss partying. lol