Jazz,
I usually post on the F&F forum but your post struck me....Obviously, you love your kids, or you wouldn't be posting about them. As Anna said they are at an age where they just don't understand what Alcoholism "the disease" means. My ex is an alcoholic and my 2 boys 14 & 16 didnt even understand, they viewed my ex simply as "a drunk."
They would beg me to get rid of him, I had no idea how much his drinking bothered them. He isn't my sons father. They had very little tolerance for him when he was drunk. I knew that I had to do something, as I did not want my boys to be around the insanity all the time. Unfortunately, he is still drinking, but he is out of my families lives. I guess what I am trying to say is this...if not for yourself, please do it for your kids, they deserve a mom, preferably one that is sober. I will say a prayer for you and your children....
Love, Patty