I grieved too. My relationship with alcohol was the longest relationship of my life.
But some relationships, even some love affairs, are abusive and toxic.
Your addiction wants you to think life without alcohol will be torture...but it's not - none of us would be here if it was
I've never known happiness like I have since I've been sober - and I rediscovered a me I didn't even know I'd lost
It's pretty sweet - honestly - and all I had to do was give up drinking
I hope you decide to take that leap of faith and give recovery a try.
I've raved on enough...I'm gonna leave you alone now...
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