I said NOT THIS to everything in my life nearly 1.5 years ago--my toxic relationship, my toxic community, my toxic job. I sold my house, closed my business, pack my car and left. I let go with both hands. I worked for room and board across the country. I lived with strangers who became friends. I learned many new skills. I experienced JOY almost every day. Yesterday I started an outdoor education program at a gorgeous university. I'm living in a cabin on campus. I can see the ocean from it! I didn't have much of a plan when I left Toxicville, but it didn't matter at that point. I had to leave the misery I had been living. I'm not sure what comes next for me, but I think it will be something good. I used to have PTSD. It was horrible to live with. I had a lot of therapy and I recovered. If I can do this, so can you.