OMG Mia I know exactly where you are right now, when I drank and took pills my anxiety would sky rocket through the roof and I felt like I was plugged into an electric socket! I don't even know how you're managing to get on a plane..... I spent the whole of last year exactly where you are now and my heart goes out to you. Thank you for reminding me of what it was like as I had been thinking of ordering more pills.
It will pass Mia, Ive been off the pills for over a month now and my anxiety is nowhere near as bad.
Sending you hugs from a fellow sufferer.
Elle