Glad you made it through the day Midnightblue. This grief does sound rough but I am so, so hoping it will break you out of the depression.
I look forward to your thoughts on gratitude. I had to get honest with myself before I could really practice gratitude. I can't honestly feel grateful for a warm bet and a roof over my head as these thoughts just make me feel badly for folks who don't have this. Also, I feel badly I don't feel better since I'm a depressive. Maybe that is the double edged sword you mentioned Midnightblue.
I hope tomorrow goes okay for you.