I can totally relate to this, I can happily go a week and not touch a drop just living/waiting for the weekend. To then get to the end of the weekend feeling like crap, spent money on nothing and with this overwhelming sense of dread. I also have had great nights out with no obviously bad consequences from my drinking but I have noticed slowly they are getting more and more destructive and more often than not there is a drama, an argument, someone I've upset or one more person who won't want to socialise with me when I've been drinking. I've never smashed up a car or ended up in prison over my drink binges but they have cost me in other ways. I understand how hard it is when you don't want to drink, say no and friends who don't want to drink alone 'guilt' you into having a drink with them and it all starts again. Stay strong, remember that feeling of waking up on a Sunday feeling fresh and enjoying you time off work. I loved being pregnant because I had a break from drinking, among many other reasons of course.... And thought that would be an end to my binges.... Obviously not! I have yet to stick to my own advice though :-/ maybe have a break from socialising with certain people for a while? I think that's what I've got to do.