Hi, NJ. Don't give up. Cancel your drinking plans at once.
It's very common to miss your old "frenemy," alcohol. I liken booze to a bad boyfriend/girlfriend. Way more trouble than it's worth, but you miss it when it's gone, and you're hoping to find a better replacement but you're kind of faced with a void in the meantime.
Just like with the loser boyfriend/girlfriend, don't go back. Think hard about something you can do in the near future that will be seriously fun and distracting. You sound like you need to smile, need to have a little fun. Is there anything you like to do? Food? Road trip? Music? Dirt bikes?
Just brainstorming. Find something, even if it's just short-term to get you through the week. Don't go drinking.