It just my way of survival, Sleepies. Like what you doing. But for me, I not love it. It painful and not way I wish to live. Sobriety brings awareness that I not ever will have true intimate relationship, will never trust, will never have so many thing that I see other enjoy. My only enabler is my self, and she all up in my face! Not can put anything past that bitch!
Thank you for you sharing Jbo.