Welcome back Wishful
I think if you've demonstrated time and again that drinking is not good for you, and there's been no improvement since last you posted, I think it is dangerous to continue drinking.
You may be lulled into the false sense of security that you have no desire to drink, but watch how that changes after the first drink or two...
Your wife and child deserve a sober partner and Dad, right?
Noones doomed to be an alcoholic if they don't want to be
what about coming back here to change your life rather than vent about he one you have?
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