Well done, celandra! You're not a slave to your AV anymore! You can acknowledge the urges and move on....knowing that you're in control and they will pass.
I hear you about the triggers, too. It seemed that everything was a trigger when I got right down to it, and that was a huge problem! I dealt with it by taking drinking off the table as an option permanently. No matter what happens in my life....my boyfriend being a jerk, my dad being ill, starting a new job, getting a raise, New Year's Eve, etc.....none of these things can make me drink or make me want to drink because drinking is no longer an option...it is no longer a way to deal with good news or bad news or changes or anything life might throw at me! Complete liberation from always wondering if and when "X" happens will I drink??? Freed my mind up for more important matters like moving forward and living my life!
Hope you'll keep posting celandra! And join us over on the weekenders thread in the newcomers section! It's a fun place with lots of varied conversation about just living life. Lots of laughs, music, and support!
Xo