Hi friends, thank you for the warm welcome. I am not well and need help. Have been white knuckling it. I want to escape everything and everyone and slip into oblivion for at least a week. I know I can't afford to do that. I am very tempted to pick up Xanax. I am very tempted to lose my sh*t with my kid who just doesn't learn and refuses any help. I have lost it and broke down into helpless crying fits at work and at a social function last week. I need to get through tonight.