Originally Posted by
Thumpalumpacus 
I suspect if you ask around, you'll find that we'd be much more upset about you lapsing because you didn't reach out and ask for help. Don't worry about our comfort. Focus on your sobriety.
I've had nights where I went to my January class asking for help because the damned urge was just so present.
Ok that's good to know. The thing about this damn addiction is that it makes you think you are the only one with this affliction. When I am suffering I think that no one else could be suffering like me. Which makes me isolate, which makes me less accountable , which makes me not care, which makes me drink.
But I go to aa meetings, post and read on SR and see that every one suffers the same way! And it still surprises me now lol!!! Slow learner. I will get there