Originally Posted by
Delizadee 
I want a drink so bad.
I tried doing some step work today, pulled out my gratitude list, exercised, went and bought a few groceries. I seem to just be wasting every day. I miss my kids so terribly. I want to be back at my farm. I feel like I'm drowning in sadness. I'm broke with no job. I just feel like giving up. Blaaaah.
I'm sorry you're so down Ddee but I agree with the others here - you have to have faith the recovery is the way forward for you.
Going back to drinking is simply going back to the things that bought you here in the first place.
It takes a little while to repair our lives but the only real chance we have of doing that is staying sober
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