Delizadee - I know how you feel. I've had more than a few moments like that since I quit drinking. But when I stop to think about it, I had more than a few moments like that when I was drinking. And not once, not one single time, did alcohol ever make my situation better. The temporary respite from the negative feelings does exactly the opposite. It keeps us in a situation we don't want to be in or makes the situation worse. Don't give up. Stay with us.