Originally Posted by
Delizadee 
I want a drink so bad.
I tried doing some step work today, pulled out my gratitude list, exercised, went and bought a few groceries. I seem to just be wasting every day. I miss my kids so terribly. I want to be back at my farm. I feel like I'm drowning in sadness. I'm broke with no job. I just feel like giving up. Blaaaah.
Stay strong Delizadee. Jobei is right. Going back to alcohol will only exacerbate the the problem in the long run. You know that to be true. It is very difficult to "embrace the suck" but it is the only way. I am struggling too. I keep thinking I can sneak off and drink and no one will be the wiser. But it is not a long lived solution. I feel that I sell a little piece of my soul every time I drink because I know its a problem and I know how it affects those around me. So I embrace the suck. I come here every day to commit to my fellow brothers and sisters that I will not drink today.
Get sober. Get your job back. Get your kids back. Lots of support here.