Hugs to you too Jsbodhi!
Thanks Carlotta, I will try to check in every day and I will give my baby an extra kiss today. True, I don't see it in myself and never did. Growing up I was taught I wasn't good the way I was and I have to undo that damage, but I've seen in others that it can be done.
saoutchik, thanks, my dad is awesome indeed. I was mortified thinking I would be homeless after my relationship ended. It's a rainy and cold day and I get to spend it by looking at houses and planning viewings. And the only drugs I'm taking are supplements to try and undo the damage alcohol and pot did. Food is still an issue, I'm so used to my calories coming from a bottle!