Originally Posted by
Grendhar 
That scares me. It tells me no matter how dedicated I am .. a day could come where my addiction takes the helm and even though I'm trying to overpower it .. I somehow still end up sitting at home with beer.
From what I have read you are pretty aware, autopilot or not yesterday, the above screams AV to me.
This s**t keeps us from trying. Stay strong!
I give advice that I shouldn't perhaps, as I am neither sober (I have drank today) nor have I experience of long term abstinence, but I think and believe the same thing everyday and that is not me.
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AoS