Hello/introduction
Hello. Well, I am not really sure where exactly all this is going. I enjoy drinking and am wondering if I am an habitual drinker or an alcoholic. I have been a heavy drinker for most of my adult life with long intervals in between where the circumstances curbed my heavy drinking--ie. school or relationships. For the past year I have been on a tear. I left an old relationship and got into a new one and am now married with a whole lot of guilt about the last relationship. Oh, no reason to go into all of it except that I feel completely off balance and crazy. Alcohol helps and it doesn't. That's probably not an unfamiliar statement. Don't look forward to not being able to go out for a beer (though that is few and far between compared to how much I stay in and get loaded).
I fear if I don't do something about this I will destroy my existing relationship, so I guess I better get the show on the road. But, mostly, I want clarity for myself and some peace of spirit and mind.