I almost had a drink today. I pulled out a bottle of vodka and held it for a while, then thought "just a little won't hurt", I just wanted that feeling back again. My AV has been latching onto the thought of "you weren't that bad, you can carry on for a little while". Right, so at what point do I stop? When I've been drinking for a few decades? When my liver gives out? What qualifies as 'bad'? Sorry AV, you're not winning me over. I just kept thinking of my future plans, which would be impossible if I were drinking. Focusing on not taking that drink for the next hour.
Optimist - Learn from your slip and figure out what you can do differently this time. You worked up the courage to post here again which is not easy, so well done. Are you attending meetings or speaking to someone?