Sorry to hear it, Grendhar. Was it boredom? That's what usually does me in. So I'm setting out to change up my routine a bit. Nothing drastic, as stress is also a trigger for me.
Don't beat yourself up. I understand the auto-pilot thing, BTDT. Tomorrow is a new day!
Recently, after reading too much of a self-help book, so much so that it was a trigger [sigh], I got into my car. Normally, I wouldn't think, just go [and I'd rotate between many stores so that no owner sees me daily]. Suddenly, rather than see the 'devil' on my shoulder [seems it's called AV here?], I saw my young son. I saw the angst in his face, just as I've been seeing it a lot more lately in real life. I left the car and had a sober day.
It felt like a miracle. First time I'd ever done that in what feels like ages. Hope I can keep it up, and I hope you can be strong, too!