Originally Posted by
jobei 
Knb02 I want to be clear I was sober for one year but that was three years ago. Currently I have 6 days. I've thought a lot about what got me back drinking and I'm working hard to not make the same mistakes. I'm trying to listen to what other sober people have done successfully and learn from it. I'm fighting day by day.
Just one day at a time for me too. Even the ones who have years of sobriety say one day at a time. I know why I always go back to drinking...cause I like the buzz. I like zoning out. But I can't control my intake. Others drink a bottle over the weekend..I drink 14 bottles a week. Big difference . I tried moderating for years and it would work for a few months or so but something would happen, I freak out and I am back to drinking on a daily basis.
I finally accept that I am powerless over alcohol and I hope this will be enough to stop me from drinking that first one. But it's hard.