Thanks everyone! I'm not currently suffering from wanting to drink, I'm just embarrassed about last night. But you have to just apologize and remind people you're suffering from a disease and you're taking steps to get help. I reached out to most everyone around me and told them about the stupid mistake I made last night and just said that I'm going to abstain so that I don't make another stupid mistake! It helps to be reminded that I'm not the first alcoholic to act like a fool and that reaching out for help is the only thing you can do!
Does anyone have a plan they can link me to? Coming here and reading and posting has been incredible, but I know I'll need some more guidance if I want to continue this way, which I do!