Good job reaching out Zen I'm sorry you hurt your back in training if urges & cravings happen try playing the tape & use these links
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html
I try having zero time for self pity as its like psychological self harm the important thing to know is these feelings will pass & will fade as time goes along don't insult your injury with alcohol get a ice pack some muscle rub and have a nice hot soothing bath you have us to lean on
Tomorrow is a new day