Thanks. If I get started on stories about my mom, I'll be here all night and will relapse! She divorced my dad, regretted it later, never remarried [who would have her??]. My dad remarried and it changed his life for 30 years. Glad he was happy, but I wasn't too thrilled about having 8 more siblings. ;-)
Somehow I managed to bury all the crap with my mom for years, but I now realize she is a big part of my drinking problem. Ok, I've ALWAYS had a huge anger management problem.
But I know… I need to let go of all that. I've only been to one AA meeting. I might try SMART. One day at a time… deep breath!
edit: don't beat yourself up, blue dog. Hang in there! Tomorrow is a new day.