Hang in there SH... it will get better if you let it. I'm into day 5 now and my withdrawls are lessened. I got some very bad news from my doctor today and I'm more scared than ever. The desire to drink myself into oblivion has never been stronger than it was today. I am full of fear... but I did not drink. I am sober this moment and I am OK this moment. My daughter is here safe and sound sleeping like a baby. This must be that moment of clarity they speak of. I don't want to hurt myself anymore. I want to let it all go. I do not want to waste any of the precious time that I have with my daughter and with myself.