Blue - I understand. Ive done some horrendous things Blue. Illegal things (not jailable crimes though)!!! And some terrible things to other people. Half of it alcohol related.
I feel ashamed and bad about what Ive done in the past. But I am really trying to change my mindset about what Ive done. Its not easy to change it, but it can be done. Im trying to change to a positive forward thinking mindset. I don't want to stay in my negative backward thinking mindset where I constantly rehash old ground. Send yourself mad doing that!
Ironically, its a good thing you have these feelings about what you've done in the past, because it means you realise what you did was wrong, and that you wont do them again. BUT, now send then adrift. Let them go. You cant go back and change the past. BUT you absolutely 100% hands down thumbs up CAN change what you do from here on in.
Whats done is done!!!