Wow! Simply wow!
You are all so awesome and whether Under or Over 1 year, the growth going on here is eye-popping and heart-warming.
Glee and Toots, you continue to grow and share your experiences and thoughts so generously.
Key, reading your post brings to mind several things for me:
When we are drinking, we don't know what our problems are.
When we stop drinking, we suddenly see the whole world as right-side up but we are still mostly upside down, struggling to view the world from a skewed perspective. It takes time for us to get oriented so we are more in synch with our world and can enjoy it.
In my experience, when I struggle too much and too long, I get help from an appropriate professional to help me untangle it all. Have you tried that?
BFree, I'm thinking of you and sending lots of love your way! I know you are in a rough place. I've read several ideas here that can help (meditation, for one). Support where you live could also provide benefits. Please know that you are in my thoughts and that I believe you can do this, even through the challenges.