Hey Bf. Nothing much to add to what Toots has said. Sounds like great advice. Just thought I'd chip in that we're all rooting for you. I've been fortunate to get sober in a fairly supportive environment and that was hard enough so I can't imagine how hard it must be for you right now.
I would encourage you to hold on. My experience has been that after 6 months or so this gets significantly easier. While that is a long time, it may help you to know that the acute suffering is finite and will not go on forever. We really can cure ourselves. You have to believe that.
Stay strong!