yesterday was surely planned out as another day for using but i decided to take 1 preventive step and look for help and i found SR well after i posted a couple times, cried harder than i think i ever have, lol, i set out to drop mom off to work and decided to spend my last 2 bucks on a ticket of course. i then proceed to win 50 bucks and immediately my mind started to race on how to come up with the next 15 in order to use. But then for the first time i just stopped. I immediately came back home and jumped right online to my new home SR. I dont even recall posting....i just read, and then read some more until i had to go to work. thank you everyone for welcoming me with open arms and a smile. it feels like you people can hug any imperfections away. today i woke up and the first thing i said is im staying sober today....
