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Old 02-13-2016, 05:25 PM
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AnonSara
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Join Date: Jun 2015
Location: Nebraska
Posts: 106
I relapsed after 20 months. It was short but it was horrible. You can't enjoy a relapse after working a program. Trust me. it will suck.

You are smart to talk about it. I went out because the cravings, like you describe, were very intense. It's what drove me to use for years and years. If I gave in to the craving then the anxiety, that push that obsession about using is gone. The feeling is gone. What I have been doing since this relapse is acknowledging the craving and then trying to get to the root of it. usually ask myself what am I worried about, what am I trying to control that is out of my control? What is upsetting me about others, about situations?

Using is simply a tool I relied upon to not have to deal with things. I can't let that be my choice any more. It was a solution that caused more problems and is not sustainable.

Keep working your program! Your 17-month sober self will thank you!!
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