Low self esteem/ not liking myself is a big trigger for me too. When my mood drops reaching for a drink to block the feeling is automatic the cravings are intense and hard to combat this is what I really need to work on.
Just before Christmas when someone whom I thought I was a friend had a go of me in front of others basically because I didnt see her point on how horrible she thinks another friend is really knocked every bit of confidence I was slowly building up. Seems so stupid and childish now I really need to be less sensitive but I was still fragile to start and it lead me to every night drinking not good.
Anyway its a Sunday and sunny yay I like others are feeling unmotivated this weekend but I am just going to run with it enjoy being lazy whilst I leave my body and mind heal from years of abuse.