My problems currently for me are my family. All the crap associated with them. My resentments that I cant let go of. I have soo many.
Im a Christian woman, but I feel like a hypocrite when I say the Our Father. Because, it says forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive others who trespass against us. Ive said this as a Catholic girl, woman, So many times. Its the same message the 12 step program shows us. So, why do I have such a hard time of living it? When after a meeting, those words just roll off my lips? I meant them when I said them, I thought. I guess I really didnt tho. Because I have a big problem of forgiving. And huge anger issues. Its all about me, yes. Because Im defective in my mind, and my spirit.
Of course, added additional crap doesn't help matters. Im just sick, in mind, body, and spirit. I hope I can focus my recovery on my self healing, for now. I can deal with the rest later, I hope. If I dont, I will never be well, and free.