Rebuilding my personal power, stronger than ever before, was the key to my recovery. Powerlessness was the path to death, and more of the same since I already felt powerless to stop drinking, and look where powerlessness got me. That's partly why the 12-step approach never fit and would never have worked, I needed the opposite.
To me it's all about power, not powerlessness. I quit because I finally made and stuck to a decision to quit, and I finally made use of help that was available to me instead of trying to will my way out of the hole alone. I remain quit because I choose to remain quit, knowing full well that if I went back I'd quickly find myself where I was. I don't wish to go there ever again, and so I won't.
Different strokes. If powerlessness and reliance on an external "higher power" works, then that's all that matters. If powerlessness does not work, try the opposite and take total responsibility for your own future, you might be amazed at what you are capable of doing.
