(((Itchy))), I hope you know that you have our unconditional love and support. It never entered my mind that you might have slipped, probably because you are so very solid and settled in your sober life.
IP, although you knew this was a possibility, it still has to be a shock. I think it's great that already you mentioned that it could be an amazing opportunity. What's the saying? When one door closes, another one opens. Change is often difficult but this is what opportunity looks like.