I'm sorry that I keep jumping in on this thread....
I hear you
Jen...it was a silly idea by me anyway.
I'm glad you have work to focus on, and I'm glad you are going to AA even if it's not exactly your cup of tea. There are some wonderful people who go there, and I'm sure you will find the right sponsor.
Hoping the counsellor calls you back soon.
I'm sorry you are in a bad place right now, but you are doing all of the things to help you.
Sending you love, and keeping you in my thoughts. ♥
Love to all of you guys....