Hi everyone. So sorry for the miserable post, I just get swept away in flurries of anxiety at the moment. Self-pity is just so yucky.
I'm going to meetings and actively looking for a new sponsor. I don't like meetings but I love the steps of AA, so to find someone to help I must endure the former. I've also contacted a counsellor who specialises in addiction and am waiting to hear back. I feel so alone at the moment, and I must take a more active part in this thread because I'm having to fight some very dark thoughts right now.
I can't take time off work very easily Venus, I would really drop other people in it, and that would make me feel worse, and actually it's the forcing myself to get up and ready that is getting me through at the moment.
I'm so sorry it's all about me...I will read everyone's posts and respond when I get home tonight.
Thank you all for being here 😘