Hello Sadsadgirl, I'm new here too.
Drinking took my wife and kid away from me, i'm only 29. It's hurts people in ways i never understood because i figured everything was fine. I was blind by selfishness and i hurt people closest to me.
This website has been a huge help for me, i'm going on i believe my 4th day sober. I've completely pushed myself into a lifestyle different of what i've known to try and be as productive as possible with recovering.
If you want to be sober DO IT! I spend nights up when i'm depressed and tired of crying in a corner like an idiot for my self inflicted ways, reading this site. I've made a few posts and the responses i get are truly warming and full of love.
I'm a night owl, i have trouble sleeping at night. if you ever want to talk either about your situation or just to keep your mind off of things POST HERE. it's taken me from lost to hopeful because i'm not alone and after only two posts i've made i feel so much better.