"Wishing and dreaming won't turn the trick / if the lessons you learn each day don't stick."
If you want to stop drinking, stop saying yes to the first drink. Make a plan that includes the absolute refusal to drink, a support group to help you in that determination when the AV gets loud, contingencies for special occasions that might test your will, and a way to come to grips with the deeper reasons for your addiction.
I'm new to recovery, but this is what is getting me through.
Good luck, Carrie. Come here and we'll all share our experiences. You don't have to be alone.
