Marcher13

Vendetta I'm really glad that you are going to give recovery a serious go. That said I'd like to make a suggestion.

You said (edited by me) ....
I remember one time an SR member wrote a great post about how so many of us rotated bottle shops so the staff in each shop wouldn't recognise how much we drank. So many of us posted on that thread saying yes we too had done that, little realising that people knew we drank too much, it was a futile exercise.

One of the members of our March 2013 class used to live above a bottle shop., she said that it was impossible for her to walk past that bottle shop without buying. She had a custom that she would buy "only" six bottles at a time so the staff wouldn't know how much she drank. What she never quite answered was why the staff would think that when she was there so often.

She wouldn't move for a variety of reasons and there were very few times she could walk past that bottle shop.

At one point we begged her to go in when she was sober and instruct them not to serve her no matter what she said or how she pleaded.

She was too embarrassed to do this. I hope you can do it Vendetta, I hope you can do it and I hope you will do it. I hope you'll go into all the bottle shops you frequent and tell them to never serve you again.

It is embarrassing but it means a real chance at the life you want.

Our classmate didn't get that chance because now she's dead. Dead from alcohol at 42.