SH, I would assume "hardcore" atheism is atheism and "soft core" is probably some mix of agnosticism. It is common among newly sober alcoholics. In fact, a whole chapter is dedicated to it in the Big Book (Chapter 4). I actually read it last night.
I champion myself a big defender of reason myself. It does not exclude us from getting sober.
One thing Im trying to remember is I don't have to figure it all out today. Hang in there.