Thank you Sunflowerlife
Working the bar sober was hard the first couple weeks was very hard. But now most of the regulars know I'm not drinking so don't even ask anymore. It is a lot easier to say no now. I find I after I tell them I'm just taking a break they are fine with that. I don't owe them any more explanation.
I guess the shift in perception is my own. Drunks at a bar are always gonna drink, but I don't need to be one of them. Also no one but me can decide if I drink or not. Sounds so simple right? Only took me what seems like forever to get it.
As for a new job... I have a degree in waste water treatment that I have never used. I have started studying to get certified. Then I will go from there. Being sober has made me realize I have been stuck in a lot of places in my life and it's time to move on and do better for myself and my son.