Sending hugs, WTBH, and wishing you peace and continued strength.
His control is slipping away, WTBH, and you're moving out of his reach. I know it doesn't feel like it, believe me, I know, but you are.
I think it's normal to feel drained and conflicted after what you've already been through and what he's doing now. Please be gentle with yourself. Remember to rest when you need it, eat, find little ways to do something nice for yourself.