yesterday, day 8, I felt pretty good, human even, a little euphoric at being able to get some things done, had some motivation. Tried to keep the euphoria in check in worry of a crash. Well today was kind of a crash, anxiety, wanting to just curl up and die. went to work though, forced myself to eat breakfast and half a late lunch, went to the gym for a light treadmill workout, hoping the workout changes my chemistry a bit. I knew yesterday was too good to be true, but I didn't expect today to be so difficult. Anxiety, diminished metal capacity, depression, loss of appetite. Have not slept well in two nights, hoping the exercise and some melatonin will help with that. hoping for a better day tomorrow.