I managed to clean my room and go for a 10 minute walk.
I still feel very low though.
I've been doing a lot of soul searching and I discovered that what keeps me so anxious is the fact that my husband talks about retirement non stop. I am only 47. I try to live one day at a time. The future scares me. And I definitely don't look forward to cook and clean after my husband for the rest of my life.
I would love to enjoy the present but those thoughts of the future are constantly in the back of my mind. If I tell him that I'd rather not talk about it he'll get depressed and tell me he needs something to look forward to. And if I don't agree then he will go ahead and move on with his plans. His idea of retirement is not what I look forward to...