I'm not quite sure where you stand?
Are you on a tapering process with an end goal to never drink again? If so, occasionally people seem to be able to make that work, however most of us cannot manage to do that. But, you said you like to chose, in any given situation, whether or not to drink and to not forbid yourself. Here at SR abstinence is the goal. For some of us, choosing another drink could be a matter of life and death.