Hi ALinNS. Thanks. I know the feeling of how terrible a binge is. When I got sober in November I literally couldn't drink anymore. I was such a wreck and my body was hurting so bad, I could barely function anymore. And I realized that it needed to stop. I didn't have a plan, which is why it surprised me that I actually stayed sober.
Until that one drink... It was the mistake. I had gotten over even thinking about drinking. Today I woke up after the binge and saw that if I want to survive, I should quit again. I refuse to get to that horrible place ever again.