On day two again. Third time since I decided to quit in November. I did have many sober weeks until last week. I was sober but not happy about it. But I have learned a LOT from these two nights I drank recently. Most importantly that it's not just stopping, but doing the work to stay sober...forever. So I have a serious plan in place, which right now includes throwing everything at this until I find something that will help me to be happy about my sobriety ( and if not completely happy- at least not miserable) so I have an appointment with an addiction counselor on the 12th, I'm going to my first AA meeting today and I've bought the SMART recovery workbook and joined their online community. We do have meetings here three times a week but the location and times will be impossible with my job. So I'll just have to narrow down my plan whe I decide what works.
Day 2 and 3 are pretty hard for me because I usually had a bottle of wine every second or third day. So I have to watch my triggers closely right now so that I don't slide back down the hole. One of my big triggers is when my husband goes to the casino to play poker. He's usually gone for over 14 hours and I'm home alone without a car. Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy some solitude and I have my dogs to keep me company. But I always had a bottle of wine on those nights. Well, despite my asking nicely he is going tonight. So it's going to be a test. I'll be on SR all night.
All Christmas is put away and I've already cleaned the house and doing some laundry. I'm plan on doing a lot of reading later, lots of tea and some Netflix.
Hoping everyone is doing well and I'm hoping with each other's support we can make this a great 2016!
